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[07 Apr 2008|10:35pm] |
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So I applied to exactly 1 program for the fall. Mostly because I hate my job and want out and wasn't sure if I would be able to get in. I did.
Now I have about a week to send my deposit in if I want to go. And I have no idea.
It's at Seton Hall for athletic training. It's 2 years for a masters degree, probably about $60,000 if i move back in with my parents. (live with my parents?) It's a degree that most people get as an undergrad, the profession has bad hours (going to sporting events early mornings, nights and weekends) and pays pretty awful.
Despite all that I still want to do it.
But of the people I've shadowed I've met precious few over the age of 40. Which makes sense given the hours and pay, but then I would finish my degree at age 26 and want a new career in 15 years. Probably less, and then what do i do with myself?
I don't know.
But in retrospect, I think in many ways that workshop was a poor life choice.
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| something of an update |
[10 Feb 2008|07:45pm] |
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since my last post was 100% failure at getting opinions here is an email i just sent about the situation...
HI,
How's NJ? I hope it's doing well because I may be coming back there in the fall. Maybe. I'm still trying to figure out where this all falls on the good idea/bad idea spectrum.
But first, what am I doing right now that caused this idea... I graduated in May and was convinced I wanted to go into physical therapy. I temped for a while, then I started working in an orthopedics surgeons practice as a medical assistant. I mostly like the work, but hate the drama, and the gossip, and all the backstabbing that goes on. And overall, I'm not that happy right now, so I'm looking to get out of the situation.
But looking at the applications for PT for next fall I have to much to get done and negative time to do it. Some creative thinking led me to athletic training. And it turns out Seton hall in South Orange has a program and I have enough time to finish the application.
This would mean moving back in with my parents in Aug for about 2 years.
I'm not sure what else to update you about since there isn't anything else happening.
I really would like your honest thoughts about this.
Thanks,
~Sharona
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| what do i do? |
[04 Feb 2008|10:59pm] |
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This would be a perfect time for a check-in...
I'm trying to decide if I should quit my job.
On the stay side.
It is a KEY job for going to physical therapy school on paper. I generally enjoy working with patients and doing all the medical type things. I get to see some cool injuries. The dr.s I work with are usually awesome. I get free lunch from the drug companies every week or two. I don't have to look for a new job. I get to wear scrubs/don't need to spend time getting dressed in the am.
On the leave side.
The people who work there are often mean and bitchy and talk about everyone behind their backs. I have no friends. It doesn't pay well and I get very few sick and vacation days. I'm moving in June and would probably need a car. I was hired in nov to replace someone who isn't leaving until at least the end of march.
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| My poor generation? |
[22 Jan 2008|07:31pm] |
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Once, when I was younger (I don't remember exactly how old I was, I just know that I had already discovered the fine art of eavesdropping.) my mother described me in the following way – "she wants everything. When she's in the water she wants to be a fish, when she's in the sky she wants to be a bird." And that made me cry because at the time I thought it was a terrible way to be. But to be fair, I cried rather often when I was in elementary school.
But I think that mental state is at least somewhat representative of my peer group. The liberal minded, middle class, politically literate, you can be anything you want when you grow up mindset. We are the children whose parents worked their asses off to give us any opportunity we could want. Who believe with all their hearts in the "unwritten commandment that says 'We shall give our children better than we ourselves had.'" (The West Wing ep. 2.1). And we want to repay them, and we want to thank them by turning into something. But wanting to be something isn't a direction in life. It doesn't give you goals to aim for or an identity of your own. And all of a sudden we are grown ups in the eyes of the world, but we're no closer to figuring out who that grown up is.
And I think my peer group has a disproportionately large amount of a certain type of 'mental illness' as a result. Things like panic attacks, anxiety, and depression. Things that, if you fall on the nurture side of the nature vs. nurture debate, could be seen to stem from such a dearth of self-identity coupled with such an abundance of self-awareness.
And seeing as we are in the US the next question is obviously 'who's to blame?' not 'how do we fix it?'
Can we blame our parents for giving us to many opportunities?
If you've never really had to struggle, how do you know how to cope when things get hard?
And if you've never had to fight like hell for something, how do you know what's worth fighting for?
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| 24 hours in NYC |
[26 Dec 2007|09:31pm] |
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Went down on Sat came back to Boston sunday night. Stayed with Abby and we had dinner with DBC. And it was Debbie who said something about not having made any new friends since she was 10 years old.
It's funny because wanting to avoid that was my entire reason to not go to McGill. But I think overall I might have lost more friends than I gained.
PS
We had a patient earlier this week who broke her hip doing the running man. 100% serious.
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| services and politics |
[09 Oct 2007|06:09pm] |
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Last Thursday night my friend Emily dragged me to Simchat Torah services at BU Hillel. I say dragged because she isn't jewish but is dating a jewish boy and is convinced they are going to get married but didn't want to go alone. whatever. So I went.
Most of the service was boys praying on one side of the room and drunk girls dancing and screaming on the other side. Like a middle school dance meets a bad fraternity party.
But right before the last round of prayer/dancing the rabbi stood up on a chair and asked everyone to stop and think about other Jewish communities around the world that were not celebrating as fully as they should. And I thought that was a nice idea. And people called out places like New Orleans and Darfur (which I'm sure has huge displaced Jewish population but the sentiment was there). When the suggestions died down he said that the community the other rabbi had suggested and he fully agreed with was the people of Gush Katif who had been 'expelled from their homes' and still didn't have 'a homestead' in which to celebrate.
Now I realize that my politics may be farther left than most of the others in the room but
1. I didn't see a single other person in the room react to this. Although I couldn't really see the guys and BU girls aren't really known for their intelligence.
2. I didn't think that it was an appropriate time to bring up Israeli politics.
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| flight?? |
[03 Aug 2006|05:15pm] |
arrive friday at the airport at 7:30pm
where can I stay?
who wants to entertain me?
??
Friday August 11, 2006
6:00pm - Boston, MA (BOS)
7:31pm - Philadelphia, PA (PHL)
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| maybe? |
[03 Aug 2006|12:08am] |
My mother has finally come to the realization that my summer sucks, and she wants to make it better. She offered to pay for me to go to Philly for a weekend. I am looking at Fri Aug 11 and such cause I am working this coming weekend, and the one that is fest. I have a final that Tuesday night, and a paper due, but as long as I finish the paper before I leave, I'll have plent of time to study.
Thoughts?
(possibly a stop in NYC on the way back to boston, no maplewood cause my parents won't be there so it'd be a bitch to get there)
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| today |
[26 Jul 2006|12:11am] |
I like a boy.
I've liked him for a while, but I got to talk to him today, and it was super.
He came by while I was at PT so there were other people there too, and that's sad.
And I'm not going to see him probably for the rest of the summer and that's more sad.
But he's funny and he makes me smile.
Also had a midterm this morning.
I did good, but I saw someone else blatantly cheating.
Which makes me cranky because even though I studied to do well, he didn't try and probably did at least as well if not better than me. Plus I he's a know-it-all who gets under my skin regularly.
Does that mean if I liked this kid I wouldn't mind that he cheated?
And if that's true, what kind of person does that make me?
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| my summer looks awesome... |
[01 May 2006|04:50pm] |
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I am having ankle surgery on thursday morning. If you are curious and nerdy like me it is called the brostrom procedure (possibly modified).
Right now, I still don't know where I'm going afterward. I did know, but the person I was going to stay with has a final on friday.
3 finals between now and the surgery. I am ready for 1 of them, the easiest.
Probably 6 weeks on crutches, then 4 more in a walking boot and full functioning in 4-6 months.
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| No one mourns the wicked... |
[26 Apr 2006|12:39am] |
Obviously, I don't update much.
But I'll have some news soon and then I'll start updating once stuff starts happening
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| yay |
[17 Oct 2005|11:16pm] |
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I got an early birthday present of an ipod nano.
It's tiny and black and so very pretty.
I don't have any idea how to use it yet, but I will.
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| Galil update #3 |
[13 Jul 2005|04:26pm] |
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Revo now, chilling at Dusty's house. Read some, watched movies, can't find the people I want to hang out with, but I'm also not opening any of the closed doors.
Monday night nofesh with Biko and Evan, went to see the Fantastic Four, then didn't want to call it a night, so we went to NYC. Got lost in Newark going both ways and got back to Galil to find that Mosh had raided us. Revenge will be sweet. Went to bed at 5, was up at 8, and somehow, stayed awake all day.
Tzevet doesn't chill together very much, but maybe that's good cause I'm not anyone's close friend.
Having mail issues. Alexis-never got your postcard, but I'm also waiting on something else.
Still lifeguarding, still pissed about it, still some issues surrounding that situation.
I miss Boston, I didn't last summer but now I do. And I'm not close with most of the people there either, and a lot of the ones I am close with won't be there in the fall. But I miss the people who I'm not close with but are fun to be around. I miss classes, and learning about stuff that is concrete, because I know if I work hard enough, eventually I'll get it, but the topics we talk about at camp aren't like that. I don't debate well. And even if did, people here still think I'm an idiot, and generally can't handle myself without help from them. It's getting frustrating.
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| Galil update #2 |
[05 Jul 2005|11:07am] |
I had to do Hidy tidy by myslef last night, cause Debbie was on chofesh and Danny was on toranut. It was sad.
Live 8 was amazing.
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| come on, please? |
[03 Jun 2005|01:53pm] |
I'm planing to go up to Galil Sunday night, June 12.
I was thinking of going to Philly on Saturday the 11th to see people. If I did that I'd get into 30th St. around 6:30pm.
So, does anyone want to host me, or at least see me? Or shan't I bother?
Also, if I were to come to Philly could I coerce anyone into driving me up to Galil on the 12th?
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| I exist |
[27 May 2005|10:46pm] |
I do, I really do.
So school ended, I'm at my parents house. woohoo.
Lots of doctor's apointments and shopping with my mother. boo.
I have no friends here and am finding myself rather bored.
I can't go to the aliya seminar because I have an MRI tuesday morning, and I can't go spend the night at Ruth's after cause I have class at 9am on thursday, and I still don't have my stupid drivers liscense-which I want and need, but I don't want to get into a car with my parents. Bad. Very very bad.
So for the rest of the summer--
June 6th-mom, lonny, jordi, jack go to Israel
June 9th-dad go to Israel
June 12th-I go to Galil
June 16th-all back from Israel, Lonny to Galil
...Galil...
June 26th-Galil start
July 24th-first session end
July 26th-second session begin
July 30-31-Wildwood (chofesh?)
August 15th-second sesion end
~Aug 17th-deconstruction end
~Aug 19th or 20th-drive to Toronto
August 21st-Ben Fisher's Wedding
August 22nd-Back in Boston by 5pm
(Aug 26th-28th-Fest, but I wont be there)
Also, I really want to get to Philly to see everyone who isn't working this summer. So who is hosting me and when is the optimal time to come?
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